Final month of 2022, and here I am; miserable and still struggling to make ends meet. Plans are going up in smoke and I'm feeling more demotivated.
It's been a difficult year, and yet I feel like I could of done so much more. With load shedding, further worsening my schedule, I can't help but ask myself; when will it all end? Furthermore, I've become more tired than usual lately. I'll have to assume, my sleepy deprivation has gotten worse than it was before; and even if I'm trying to rest more often, my body still shuts down from the slightest amount of over exertion.
When I try to make time to play a brand new game, or go back to one I enjoy; I'll have to say they I've wasted to much of my life on free-to-play battle pass completions, only for my efforts to feel bittersweet. IDK; I think I just miss playing a game to relax to, than being casually competitive in PVP. I just don't feel like I'm ready for these types of games at my current age.
At this point; I'll just have let things play through, and worse comes to worse, then so be it.
MchectorII
Sorry to hear about what you’re going through and you’re not alone because that’s close to what I’m facing right now.I feel like it’s getting harder to even get up and face each day as I feel like there’s lesser reason for me to do so.Having to deal with depression together with the fact I have almost no one to turn to,every day is a struggle and like you,I no longer find joy in doing things I used to love.However,for some reason,a part of me refuses to give up despite all that.Maybe it’s just my little sense of hope that maybe if I make it through another day,things can change.I hope things get better for you.If you need someone to talk to,you can message me anytime.Hang in there,man!